Driver's Test

Tomorrow morning I'm taking my driver's test in Norco, CA. Waking up at 7:00 am and taking an hour drive to get to this city I have never even BEEN to. I don't know how I'm going to pass, if I can't predict the streets. Anyway, I watched the CA DMV videos on youtube, "Driving Tests: 10 Top reasons People Fail the Driving Test". Definitely Try to watch these, they have helped me so much.

The problem still is the matter of my unfamiliarity of the area. Unfortunately, there are no maps on the driving routes for this particular DMV, why does no one think of this?! Maybe I'll try to get it written down afterwards-- I pray I pass, but if I don't, I don't.

Top Four things to remember:

********** 1. (Which didn't even let me take the test!!!) Remember your proof of insurance, car registration, permit, and anything you can think they might ask you for!

2. SMOS: Signal, Mirror, Over Shoulder

3. When making a right turn: Signal, stop in front of the cross walk, check for pedestrians, creep forward to check traffic, then make your turn. (1,2,3)

4. When making a left turn in an unprotected intersection: Signal, check as you yield into the middle of the intersection, let all oncoming traffic pass, check for pedestrians, and then make your turn.

I hope that helps anyone, I'll tell you how it went. Hopefully, things will certainly work out.

Rose enchantment

Sometimes I wonder where God is taking me. The beginning of community college has been such a whirl wind of emotions that I can't seem to grasp where it is I am. The loss of my devotional book has meant that I feel farther and farther away. But you know what? Every time I think I'm going to fall away into oblivion, He shows me that He's there.

I'll pray for you and hope you realize, that He'll be there for you as well.

The Green Grass

Today was my first day of community college. 

My mom made me drive all the way there, which resulted in several minor collisions, but that's okay, the worst part is the yelling. I still feel sad that I'm missing out on the opportunity to be somewhere else right now, but that's okay too. Slowly, but surely you'll see that I'm gonna get there soon.

Plastic Roses

Hey readers (if there are any),

I received my acceptance into the Honors Program from [insert community college] and I have to say that I'm amazed at the amount of opportunities the program offers! 

- field trips

- conventions

- speakers

- UC library passes

- guaranteed admission at some universities  

It's astonishing and I'm so thankful God has given me!

However I remembered that I actually couldn't get into any of the honors classes! I can turn my regular courses into honors by filling out a contract, but I don't understand how to fill it out. 

 I feels like I'm smelling plastic roses; they're pretty and look so real, but they're still not roses. Translating to, there is still so much left to do before I really am a part of the Honors Program. I pray things will go smoothly 

Clay Flowers

This morning my grandmother came over and like the most absurdly wonderful grandmother in the world, brought us to my new community college so she could look around. The first thing she said was,

 "I never saw such a beautiful campus, Erin, I think it'd be wonderful to study here." I could have kissed her. "You know, I went to community college too and so did your father. We both graduated there [. . .] don't worry you'll find classes" 

About that time, I lost one of my clay flowers I glued to my nail that morning 1 of 2.

The next one I lost at my friend's party. 

But finally at 12:01 am exactly I logged onto [insert community college website] and was finally able to register for classes!!!!!

I have classes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REAL-- FOR REAL CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so ecstatic! Nothing can err me now except for the fact I have pilates tomorrow, and after a whole summer of no ballet classes, I'm going to be so sore!

Please, Let It be the White Rose

On my first and last prom, I gave my date a white rose. 

It was a perfect flower; not yet bloomed, yet so delicate, so beautiful . . .

The Florist warned me, if I should touch it, it would die during the dance, so I kept it safe. I cradled the box in my lap all the drive home, imagining his face would light up when he saw it. 

Reflecting on it now, I was free from worry, or doubt. I just knew that everything would turn out the way I had hoped, because I imagined that when I was with the one I so loved, even the storms would be clouds in the sky. 

I looked up "White Rose" the next day. "You are heavenly", "Humility", "Youth", "Innocence" [Internet Florist], how amazing that the flower should reflect everything I was feeling. 

If everyone's feelings were displayed by flowers, we would have such a colorful world. Even the bad times would be filled with joy and delight. This is the way a good friend told me that we should see God. 

We should treasure our feelings that we have for Him, cherishing the love it brings our hearts when we think on him. Full of innocence, and humility . . . I want to be that White Rose because everyday is a struggle to stay cheerful. But knowing God is there, I should constantly remind myself of that perfect white rose that was waiting to fully bloom, to become even more precious, to bring more joy. Just like how God will one day use us to spread love and His Holy Name. 

Right now, I'm waiting to see if registrations from [insert community college] will open up, and I'll be able to find classes for this semester so I can begin my life. I'm scared. I'm praying that everything will turn out okay, but somewhere inside of me is telling me, be strong, have faith. God has his plan for you. 

So in my heart I'm also praying. Please, my faith, my feelings, let it be the White Rose; strong, sure, in its pure intentions, quiet, subtle, and Innocent. 

I'm not a Biblical scholar this blog is about me learning to find my way back onto the path. God is my guide, and everyday I feel I'm getting closer to him. Hoping never to stray again.

Inked Blooms

Tired Today . . . 

I was able to send off the fax to [insert community college 2] , hopefully I'll be able to register. But listen!

Their requirement is orientation at the school! I'm not even sure how to get there its a 9 hour drive . . . my goodness. 

and registration for [insert current community college] ends today *sigh*. I still haven't registered for any classes. What do I do now?

Finished some illustrations my friend asked for, for her children's book. I think it looks pretty nice, but I'm not sure if anyone will like it. What do you think?