I had thought about going to rejoice the end of the year with all my young friends (all covered in huge purple leis), but decided to hang back. Although my boyfriend was going to be there (which is also an advantage), I just felt so much shame in my heart --- I don't want to run into all my teachers and see their faces of disapproval. I would have to explain to Mr. Landers why I didn't go to his alma mater, or to stare in the face of Madame Oyler, who made me feel intellectually obsolete for two years of my life.
I do not want to confront these troubles! It makes me realize now, that I really haven't gotten over my failure 2 years ago. I am going to go to an even BETTER college now, and I got straight A's my first semester of Community College, and relatively good grades for my second semester! I guess this proves the saying that "you just can't let go of the past", but just goes to show that God brought me through that struggle, and He will surely fulfill His promise, and guide me forward again.
Dear Erin,
ReplyDeleteEven in a small class size of 25, I still can't exactly pinpoint who you are.
But I want you to know that I admire your beliefs and would love to get to know you more.
I am part of Intervarsity and Koinonia, have you heard of those 2 groups on campus?
Thank you for your comment on Lit in the Morning. After rereading my blog, it does seem rather vague because I took more consideration of the lines "in light of the poem" rather my own feelings for the line.
Hi aileen, haha i'm not quite sure whether to comment to you here, or on your blog so I guess I'll try both? It's nice to share the same beliefs, so thank you, it took me a long time to understand God's hand in my life--- and in truth it is still a life long process.
ReplyDeletehaha actually I am also a part of Koinonia as well, so I'm sure that we will see eachother more often in the future! :)
Just wanted to let you know that if my comment seemed like a criticism I apologize. I only meant it as friendly feed back so you can get a good grade (believe me I've had horrible posts before). :)